One of the hardest times in my life was having to have to leave my dad. I will never forget the day I was so sad to see us just go. Especially knowing that he could do nothing to make us stay. This was a command from the church and there was absolutely nothing we could do unless our prophet decided to change his mind, which was obviously impossible. I was so glad when after years of seperation i had finallyt found my dad.
O I remember this day very well, this was the worst day of my life. My wish is to one day forget this day ever happened. It was like a nightmare come true and this one really did happen! I don't know how mom my permitted this, I mean come on I was only 14 when I got to marry my first cousin, Allen Glade Steed. I still look back and wonder how religion can chage a person so much, to the point were a person's religion can even be more important than your very own family. Hopefully though I will forget and I know that I am sooner or later with the help of my husband Lamont Barlow.
During my marriage with Allen I had Suffered a lot. It even got to the point of escaping my home just to not see him, because I was scared at the time. Anyway though I remember though that one of my friends who had recently just left the FLDS was going to vegas with her boyfreind and asked me to go. I at first had said no since my husband wouldn't let me, but later didn't care and just decided to go without his permission since either way he abused of me. I will never forget my time there, it was so much fun I enjoyed myself more than ever and had even gotten some new clothes. I felt good to have not listened to my husband and just enjoy life for a while. What mad it more special though was how Lamont had come with us that got us even closer at the time when I was still with Allen. But it felt good to have a friend tag-along.
I will never forget my first child born alive. He was son of Lamont, we decided
to name him Tyler. Well anyway Tyler was born in February 18, 2005. I was so
excited when he was born, and not only because he was the child of a man that I truly loved but also since he was the first child that i had be alive. I had been so careful with this pregnancy and had even got special attention because of my past with my pregnancies. Little Tyler has really lightened my life and I couldn't imagine my life without him. I shall keep thanking good eternally for the wonderful gist he has given me and for making him be born alive with me.
After years of being quiet, not speaking to anyone about my life in the past I had had, I finally decided too. It was in 2006 when I decided to take action by making charges I was also pregnant at the time of my lovely daughter, who was born in the middle of the court case. I remember that I was really scared when I was in court especially having to face him and see people defend him after all he had done to me. All the people would defend him and contradict what me and my sisters had said. They all said that they had options if they wanted to do something or not and that the people chose to see him as prophet. During this case I also got to face Allen who dramatisized his story so much. He made it seem as he was the victim and that I was the one to provoke him. In the end though justice was made and both of them were took to jail, Warren for accoplice of 2 rapes and Allen for raping me but Allen only stayed there for a short time and also having to pay a fine of around $5,000 dollars but Warren got years in
prison, to this day he is still there.